Stored
Today I met with the movers and got all of the belongings stored in Zoe's Storage unit. That way everything is safe and sound till her estate is settled. As for me I am wiped. I was thinking it would only take 3 hours but it was closer to 5 after making 2 trips to and from the storage. Mary was kind enough to stay with my boys so I could help the movers as much as possible so that the storing would go quickly as possible. I honestly didn't realize how much it was going to hurt emotionally to put everything away. It still felt like Zoe's house since all her stuff was there now it is empty and cold. It hurt to look through stuff to find a hard copy but it hurt even more to store it all away.
Tomorrow the children are going to come over and hang out.. Their foster mom has a graduation and party so I offered them to come here. We are going to go to Old Navy and get them swim suits something that has been postponed for the week since there were bad thunderstorms on the days I was going to take them. I am hoping to go to brat fest with them. There is a nice ride area.. I have been told it is a little pricey but hopefully we can get a few rides in. Tomorrow Jonathan is going to come up and clean the town home for leaving and handing the keys back to the Landlord.
Another sad point is that tomorrow my husband and I were going to have a brunch date because Zoe offered to watch our 3 boys in the morning for us to go out. This is the last set date I had with her. These days are harder for me then others. Some days Zoe and her family would come over and other days we just chatted on the phone or FB. But then we would schedule things too like working on our garden and her wanting to hang out with Baby Adam and Isaac and Noah so she offered to watch them. I guess where I am going with this is it hurts knowing that I would see her it was a guarantee but not now. Sadly this is the last future event we had definitively planned so hopefully these days won't hurt so much but it is still sad. And I still miss her everyday.
I didn't realize how hard being the point person is especially when I feel like I am working hard to get everything done.. I find myself stressing and then depressing realizing that I have bottled EVERYTHING. I haven't really had a chance to just sit and morn my friend. Maybe now that things are calming down I can work through my feelings. This year has been rough first with my step dad and now one of my best friends. I hope this is a time that bad things roll in 2 because I don't know if I can handle any more for a long time.
I went and got a massage today I have found that I have been stressed to the point that I have tightened my back and rounded it with my shoulders near my ears. That is tight. The Massage therapist was able to work some of that out I have noticed though if I start thinking about things again that my shoulders draw up again close to my ears. I am fighting to keep them loose right now.
Other topic. I got my dress for my cousins wedding It is super cute and a nursing dress. Our Hotel rooms are set aside too. So all ready for the 8 hour trip though I have a few months. They are actually getting married the day after our 5 year wedding anniversary. So another year I will not see my husband on our anniversary to celebrate. He will be down at Drill it is family weekend that weekend but he still has to go even with out us. He is also gearing up for drill the first weekend of June (4-6) then he comes home for a day (7th) and then he has AT (Advanced Training) from the 8th through the 23. We are hoping since he will be at the Unit that he will be able to come home on weekends.. That would be nice.
Well that is pretty much the update so far.. Have a great Memorial Day weekend.
Tomorrow the children are going to come over and hang out.. Their foster mom has a graduation and party so I offered them to come here. We are going to go to Old Navy and get them swim suits something that has been postponed for the week since there were bad thunderstorms on the days I was going to take them. I am hoping to go to brat fest with them. There is a nice ride area.. I have been told it is a little pricey but hopefully we can get a few rides in. Tomorrow Jonathan is going to come up and clean the town home for leaving and handing the keys back to the Landlord.
Another sad point is that tomorrow my husband and I were going to have a brunch date because Zoe offered to watch our 3 boys in the morning for us to go out. This is the last set date I had with her. These days are harder for me then others. Some days Zoe and her family would come over and other days we just chatted on the phone or FB. But then we would schedule things too like working on our garden and her wanting to hang out with Baby Adam and Isaac and Noah so she offered to watch them. I guess where I am going with this is it hurts knowing that I would see her it was a guarantee but not now. Sadly this is the last future event we had definitively planned so hopefully these days won't hurt so much but it is still sad. And I still miss her everyday.
I didn't realize how hard being the point person is especially when I feel like I am working hard to get everything done.. I find myself stressing and then depressing realizing that I have bottled EVERYTHING. I haven't really had a chance to just sit and morn my friend. Maybe now that things are calming down I can work through my feelings. This year has been rough first with my step dad and now one of my best friends. I hope this is a time that bad things roll in 2 because I don't know if I can handle any more for a long time.
I went and got a massage today I have found that I have been stressed to the point that I have tightened my back and rounded it with my shoulders near my ears. That is tight. The Massage therapist was able to work some of that out I have noticed though if I start thinking about things again that my shoulders draw up again close to my ears. I am fighting to keep them loose right now.
Other topic. I got my dress for my cousins wedding It is super cute and a nursing dress. Our Hotel rooms are set aside too. So all ready for the 8 hour trip though I have a few months. They are actually getting married the day after our 5 year wedding anniversary. So another year I will not see my husband on our anniversary to celebrate. He will be down at Drill it is family weekend that weekend but he still has to go even with out us. He is also gearing up for drill the first weekend of June (4-6) then he comes home for a day (7th) and then he has AT (Advanced Training) from the 8th through the 23. We are hoping since he will be at the Unit that he will be able to come home on weekends.. That would be nice.
Well that is pretty much the update so far.. Have a great Memorial Day weekend.
